Anticipation

Ok, yes, it is 4:25 am and I am at my computer. I can’t seem to sleep. Not only is sleeping just plain uncomfortable lately, I woke at 3 am and couldn’t turn off all the thoughts swirling through my head. I keep picturing our son, tiny and pink. And the surgery. And all the things we still need/want to do to be fully "prepared" (which I know you never really are!). Yesterday was my last day day in the office before starting my Maternity leave. Even after working until 9pm, I still have one huge outstanding item and until I can finish it, I won’t be able to fully let go of work. Unfortunately, we had an email migration last night that has rendered me without network access until at least 10am, so instead of hammering my work out this rainy dawn, I am typing to you.

We are still on for June 6th at 10am for our c-section. However, I feel like a walking time bomb... with every new sensation I think "Is this it"? So far, everything has been false alarms, but the anticipation is overwhelming! If I keep hanging on, I will post some more information this weekend- the hospital info, pictures of the nursery, new email addresses, etc.

I guess I should just get used to these 4 am mornings… there will be a lot more of them in our future. A future we are so excited about!